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  • Genre:FICTION
  • SubGenre:General
  • Language:English
  • Pages:314
  • eBook ISBN:9798350926965
  • Paperback ISBN:9798350926958

Yesterday, I Was Fine

by Hope Johnson

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Lou was on the brink of a perfect summer until the night her sister didn't come home. Suddenly, without explanation, Lou is sent to stay with her brother, two hours away. She knows she should talk about what happened but can't bring herself to open up. That is until Lou reluctantly joins an art class and meets one boy who helps her escape the unease of her current life. Gage and his friends are a fun distraction, but Lou can't stop thinking about her problems close to home. Now, Lou must find the strength to face the disappointment and pain of growing up in a family struggling with unity and wholeness before she loses herself along with them.

"I leaned into him as he put his arm around my shoulders. Gage was staring at me, smiling his gorgeous smile. His sharp features were more prominent in the street lights. His icy blue eyes seemed to calm most of my anxiousness. This was the moment I had secretly hoped for since the day we met. I could admit that now. I wanted to kiss him from the moment he first smiled at me." 

If you enjoyed "The Fault in Our Stars" by John Green, you'll love "Yesterday, I Was Fine."



Greetings Reader, My first love has always been Story. The first story I ever loved was Peter Pan. I dreamt of Neverland and having great adventures with Tinkerbell and Peter. The first book I ever loved was "Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone." I discovered Harry Potter in the third grade after my best friend told me about this awesome story about a wizard who didn't know he was a wizard but goes to a wizarding school. The excitement we felt over that book was thrilling, and I knew, from that point forward, I was going to be a writer. The problem is I shouldn't be a writer. The same year I began to dream of being a writer, I was diagnosed with dyslexia. The next few years were spent with my mother as she painstakingly helped me to develop techniques to compensate for my dyslexia to be able to read, comprehend, and hopefully write. It took years before there was any real progress. But through all that time, I wrote, even if it wasn't spelt write. (See what I did there?) So, my first thank you will always be to my mother. Without her, I don't know if I'd be writing you this letter today. The idea for Yesterday, I Was Fine grew out of personal experiences with my family. We have suffered the loss of a loved one to suicide, and we had to learn and educate ourselves about mental health after a family member was diagnosed with clinical depression. Since then, I have striven to fight against the stigma of depression while trying to understand depression from an outside point of view. It's hard to watch someone you love broken and wounded. It's difficult when you do not know how to manage it or fix it. It's challenging to watch out for similar signs of mental health in yourself, no matter how well-educated you are about the subject. I wanted to bring to life those struggles and dilemmas in my story. I hope I did. While it was important to use my writing as a tool to fight for a better understanding of mental health, I'm always primed for a love story. There's quite a bit of heaviness and angst in this story, so I wanted to bring something light and hopeful. I could think of no better way to lighten the mood and distract a person from troubles than a new romance. It took years to finish my story and just as long to edit it. Then I called upon people to critique it, which meant more editing. The first draft of chapter one is very different from the final form because I needed to separate this book from my personal life story. Just when I thought I was finished, I discovered more about publishing and quickly realized that my story was far too long. I ached and agonized over cutting scenes from my book. It was excruciating. The gutting was hard, but it was worth it to arrive where the story is now - finally. I'm fortunate for the amazing support I've received from friends, family, and the friends of friends who gave me advice or helped critique my book. I want to especially thank my mother, who taught me to read and write, and my father ("the most important man in my life," his words, not mine), who taught me to listen with an open heart and mind. My extended family for the laughs and good jokes I've stolen for my stories, my friends, who never stop asking when I'm going to publish my book; and my teachers, who showed me the ins and outs of writing. And I'm thankful to you, dear reader, for giving my story a chance. I hope it gives you all the wonderful feelings it gives me. I would love to hear what you think and feel about my story.

Over and out, Hope Johnson

About the author
Hope Johnson studied English and Writing at the University of Glamorgan in Cardiff, Wales. She is a freelance writer, digital marketer, and social media manager. Three days a week, she works in a hospital emergency department. Most weekends, she can be found journaling, writing, and feeding her caffeine addiction at her favorite coffee shop. Hope lives in North Carolina with her Shih Tzus, Bear, and Lucy, along with a substantial library she has been adding to since third grade. You can connect with Hope on Instagram or Twitter @TheHopeJohnson. You can also visit her website www.thehopejohnson.com, to sign up for emails about new releases.

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Beautifully Written, Compelling Story Yesterday, I Was Fine begins with Lou, a typical teenager, celebrating with her best friend over the joys of summer. Almost immediately, a family crisis changes everything. Lou’s parents send her away for the summer to live with her brother and his best friend in a town where Lou knows no one else. Her emotions as she struggles to adjust to the situation range from confusion and fear, to sorrow and pain, to healing and joy. The people she meets and builds relationships with give her the support she needs to forge her own path toward coping with the crisis. This book is labeled Young Adult, but adults of all ages can identify Lou’s journey back to a sense of normalcy. Johnson has given us a beautifully written, compelling tale of healing and hope. Throughout, the authenticity of the writer’s voice brings the characters to life and draws the reader in, making us feel like part of the story. Lookin’ forward to seeing where Johnson takes us next! Read more
Yesterday I Was Fine The author did a great job of dealing with current issues and keeping the readers interest. It has many emotions throughout. I loved the book and can’t wait for the author’s next book. I highly recommend this book. Read more
Great story! The author displays compelling storytelling that deals with deeply serious family issues concerning mental health and suicide. The characters' emotions are authentic and resonate with the reader. While the issues are deeply serious, there is a lightness and even an innocence to the main characters that draws the reader in. In simple terms, you like these flawed people. "Yesterday, I Was Fine" is a realistic narrative that provides an important portrayal of the emotional rollercoaster experienced by families dealing with suicide. The portrayal of a teen's struggle to understand and connect with her family during a crisis is heart-breaking and heart-warming. The author captured the complexities of the subject matter with authenticity and hope. The book is entertaining, inspiring, and insightful. Read more
Yesterday, I Was Fine Well written fiction account - although it could easily be true - of how families love each other through a crisis. Hope Johnson's first book Yesterday, I Was Fine, takes the reader on an emotional journey as one family copes with a daughter's suicide attempt. Written for your young adults this book will be equally appreciated by parents as the story plot is told by a teen-age sibling and her response to the crisis that disrupts the family as a unit. The story concludes by looking at how one family survived the ordeal - and how they discover that their love for each other is greater than any crisis they might face. I highly recommend this book - and look forward to Hope Johnson's future publications. Read more
Amazingly written! The author did an amazing job of taking us on a journey throughout the story. Very well-written! I can’t wait to see what the author has in store for us next! Read more
A great read! This book is promoted as young adult fiction but as an older reader, I also found the characters and their experiences compelling. The characters are well-developed and realistic in their experiences of grief simultaneous with celebration, coming of age struggles related to personal relationships and individualization from parents and family, and even some romance! This book made me laugh, cry, and think. What more could one ask of a great read? Read more