This book will take you from the early days of my life as I re-live it, and you see it through the retrospective mirror of my eyes. Hopefully you will be equally amazed reading this book as I was writing it. I will delve deep into the darkest area of my experiences, from childhood to adulthood, taking you from my earliest days as a New York City Transit Cop, through my experience as a New York City Detective. I will take you through the accounts on the day of September 11, 2001, where I was watching from my office window, approximately one mile away, while events unfolded in front of me, and I was waiting for orders from the higher up within the police department. Man, what a day that was, and I've always thought about writing a book but was always afraid, thinking I could never do it. I guess after witnessing the events of 9/11 I decided to go on with this book. This book may delve into areas that may be deemed questionable, but it is my intention to tell the truth. I will discuss my life as I lived and worked as a New York City Cop.