They Promised Heaven But Led Me to Hell

This is a true story base on actual events of a New Zealand girl from birth, her young years in two catholic church orphanages. My crime, in the eyes of the catholic church nuns, was that I was born to an unwed mother who was raped and I was a daughter of  the devil. The punishments for my sins started when I was eighteen months old in the nursery by three ladies workers for the nuns which were repeated most nights up to the age of five years old. My childhood was a life of abuse by nuns, the workers, older girls and a priest, the only way I could get through this was to be by myself or run away and hide, go and stay in the church and also climb as high as I could in the trees or jump the fences and hide in long grass. I also went to the police but that did me no good I was thrashed by the nuns when the police took me back to the orphanage.

I am also fighting for justice for abuse of all children and also to do with the New Zealand Royal Commission Inquiry Into Child State Care, because the New Zealand Government will not join in the churches who were also under state care, this is re-abuse all over again to us men and women of the orphanages and homes, yet again we are the unwanted children and again as us men and women fight for justice they  turn their backs on our cries for help. This New Zealand Commission Inquiry would of being our last chance for justice, but it is not to be, we are again thrown onto the rubbish heap as we were as the unwanted children of the catholic church. This has turned out to be the lowest that the New Zealand government has bought us men and women down to, they have also victimizes us again and again, in the way they keep it up in our face and telling us that NO, the Inquiry is just for the state run homes and state run family homes.  It would of being our only hope for the nuns to give us back our family homes. 

My childhood abuse in the orphanage, is New Zealand's shameful, dirty secret of physical, mental and sexual abuse of innocent children by nuns, lay staff, the older girls and the priest and bullying at two orphanages in Christchurch New Zealand. From the age of five to ten old I was made to work on their farm and laundry at Mount Magdala – St. Joseph Girls Orphanage then from ten to nineteen years old I worked in the Nazareth house kitchen and laundry. I was conceived out of wedlock, because of my mother being raped at fifteen years old. I was just two and a half months old when I was snatched from my mother's arms, by the catholic church then placed in the care of one of their Catholic orphanage. From the beginning, I was taught that my mother was sinful and that I would be too unless the devil was beaten from my soul. I was sexually abused in the nursery from a tiny young girl of eighteen months old by three lady workers for four years. At night times three nuns would ritual attack me by taking my clothes off, tying me to both ends of the bed and savagely attacking me with the buckle of her belt, hula hoop cut in half and a large whip as they tried to suppress my will and to break my spirit. They Promised Heaven But Led Me To Hell is also about my fight with the catholic church to accept responsibility for the past institutionalized abuse of children and young people while in their care and to admit – unconditionally – that there was wrong doing by the two orders of nuns and the priest. It is a story which needs to be heard and to read, I have told of the horrific upbringing in two catholic orphanages. Whilst unbelievable that such acts of cruelty happened in New Zealand by nuns, They Promised Heaven, But Led me to Hell... also portrays my great strength of spirit and determination. I am a mother of four, a grandmother and a great grandmother and I have lived in Whangarei for the past fifty-two years, 1966 to 2018 with my husband Brian. My story is one story of many worldwide...