Turning 30 years old, really made me reflect on the previous 12 years of my adult life. I can’t lie about the situation, it kind of had me in my feelings, on so many different levels. I was reflecting on some of the situations that I’ve lived through, experiences that I’ve had, mistakes that I’ve made, battles that I’ve won and lost, being in a place in life, that I never imagined I would be in, and losing and gaining my grip on reality. In the movie ATL, T.I. said “Dreaming is the luxury of children,” and those words were ringing loud and clear. As a child, I dreamt of recording an album that had the exact same effect as M.J.’s Thriller album! I dreamt of having an illustrious movie career! Only accepting the funniest and highest paying offers! I dreamt of going to Berklee College of Music, buying houses for my parents, having a family with my high school sweetheart, having some sort of significant impact on the world. As the ramifications of my life choices started to mold my reality, my childhood dreams were one by one, traded in for bills, drama, and responsibilities. Make no mistake about it, I had all the time in the world to pursue any passions that I had, yet, in the mirror stood the reflection of the best procrastinator and excuse maker, this side of the Mississippi! So gifted, but no presence! I began to think about what kind of legacy I’m leaving, and I wasn’t satisfied with myself. Not that I haven’t done anything in life, I’ve released a few studio albums, and I do feel like God did with them, what He wanted. But my last full album was in 2010. I decided that my 2010 album was not going to be the finale of my creative dreams and ambitions. I began to write, just expressing my emotions and feeling about things that I’ve been through, the state of this country, and how God never left my side. Because I was completely honest in every single thing that I wrote, it began to be an organic therapeutic session for me. I was able to be real with myself, and therefore be real with you. Some of my words are subliminal, while others are blatant, but every word is a part of me! So, read every word to understand me, but see every word to feel me!
