Silent Tears

Sometimes, secrets hurt. Every life is a story of experiences lived. My life is a story, your life is a story and no one tells our story better than we can. Our life is made up of moments and they are very precious because they create memories. Memories are powerful because they affect how we think and how we think affects how we act, which determines the direction our life takes. Our stories are powerful, and meant to be shared and can be used as a tool to help others. We have two life stories: The first is the one that we live outwardly to others. It is how we show up in the world by what we let others see. The second is the one that we live inwardly. The story that is written silently in our hearts by the thoughts, emotions and actions that we never share. It is the one hidden on the inside that we never speak about because it causes us pain, embarrassment or shame. It is the story of our secrets. We don't realize that our secrets can hinder and impact our lives unknowingly, because they are hard to face. But as we release them and tell our stories, we make room for healing to enter that place. And the healing brings freedom that replaces the pain of our silence so that in the process, we may help someone else gain their freedom. So, I am sharing my story of letting go of a pain I've held for over 15 years - the pain of abortion. My hope is that as you read, there is something that touches your heart and helps you identify and release whatever pain you may have hidden in your secrets. I hope it opens your heart so healing can enter in.

My story is not a political statement, nor a stand on the issue of abortion. No, it is simply the story of a young woman's experience of finding her way through life and dealing with the consequences of earlier decisions as she learns to reframe her past to enable a better future. At some point in life, I believe we all experience moments where we shed silent tears. They flow inside where no one can see them. They may be tears of loss and regret; or of compassion and empathy. They are the tears that communicate all that we cannot say with words. Instead, the tears flow quietly, silently inside, where no one can see them. Only we know they are there. But they leave an impression in us that we keep hidden away until something, or someone, triggers it. And we end up back at that moment, reliving the pain all over again. We need healing. This story is my journey of dealing with the taboo subject of abortion that happened in my life and how I found my way back to wholeness. Here are a few comments from readers who shared their story with me after reading the book: "I just finished reading your book. I have no words. I am feeling so much. This book does not only deal with those who have had abortions, it also deals with those of us who carry secrets..." "I loved your book. Beautifully written and an amazing story. I haven't read a book for years and am so glad that I actually took the time to read yours. I am still processing so want to think about all you shared. It's an easy read. As a reader, I was interested in learning how your story would end.." "I can't thank you enough for telling me to read your book. Your story was my story. I feel like I had the same feelings, emotions and situation..." "I loved reading your story and journey you took to heal. AWESOME read!! I love to read thought provoking books. I think you should write more..." "This work of art has become a healing/wholeness tool that God is using to do even more in me. At first I was shocked by how much I related to every aspect of your experiences and then I realized that abortion is a universal experience. Disassociation, embarrassment, fear, shame, loneliness, and despair, powerful seeds planted by an impulsive decision that feels like the only option. WOW!"

Charlene has a passion for writing, teaching and learning. She has journaled for over 40 years and loves to share what life has taught her with others. She believes in encouraging and helping others see the good in life and that there is a way to live your best life. Charlene is an avid walker who believes the morning is the best part of the day.