If I Only Knew

This book is about overcoming adversity. This is about how believing that God is in control and that we are here for His purpose and not ours. I want women especially to know that no matter what you can succeed. you my even feel like the odd man (women) out. But its not about being odd its about being an eagle flying over other birds. Remembering that you are an eagle. Knowing that being different is ok. Relax and ask God each and every day what he want you to do with your life. Relax. Relax. Relax. Everything will fall into place. People (family and friends) will thing your crazy. Just remember that in Bible days people thought noah was crazy for building the ark.

A longer description of my book would be to say most of the stories in the book are about my life and how i got passed all kinds of abuse. Abuse in all of my relationships family and with my relationships with men. How when abuse starts at home that it can continue into all relationships if not addressed. How abuse shows in how you allow yourself to be treated. How you over compensate in what every you do. It gets to the point where you decide you want you life to be different. Self-esteem is what needs to be built. So I started building my esteem. I started accepting myself so that it didn't matter what anyone thought. God was in charge of it all. I stop allowing people to determine who I was. I started believing in myself. I am filled with joy in my life now and not sadness. i want others to know they can do the same. Know that God is in control of everything. Just humble yourself to Him and he will show the way.

I was born in Manhattan, NY on July 7, 1957. I was raised in bklyn by her grandmother half the time and my mother the other time. In June 1975 I graduated from Clara Barton high vocational high school. After high school i went to NYU for a certificate in dental assisting. I worked as a dental assistant for about 10 years. In August of 1987 I started working at the New York City Transit Authority. At age 55 in 2012 I retired from Transit. Now I'm pursing my dream of writing and publishing books. During those year i married twice and had 2 children. One of my 2 sons is married with 3 kids the other one is still single.