A book of hope and understanding for every moment of wondering, Will I ever truly feel alive again? When Tammy Hagins's husband died in a tragic accident at the age of 46, Tammy found herself on an unexpected and unwanted journey of grief. As she held her five-year-old daughter through long nights, navigated the endless paperwork surrounding Kevin's death, and learned the joys and challenges of receiving help from others, Tammy thought over and over, This is not the way life was supposed to go. Out Alive is the heart-wrenching, hope-filled story of Tammy's first year as a young widow. Writing for anyone experiencing shattered dreams, Tammy draws on her background as a counselor as well as her personal story to come alongside us in our own experiences of loss. Brutally honest about anger and fears, haunting regrets, and midnight wrestlings with God, Out Alive is a tribute to what it looks like to climb tenderly back to new life. As Tammy writes, despite all the unanswered questions, she holds a heart that is "alive and intact, possibly even more alive than it had been before my husband's death." If you are wondering how your life became something so different than what you had planned, find encouragement and companionship in Tammy's words as you embrace the beauty and the struggle of living with a heart alive.

Tammy Hagins is a counselor and spiritual director with a masters degree in both Islamic studies and marriage and family counseling from Southwestern Baptist Theological Seminary. While she has been working with survivors of trauma for most of her career, she has most recently focused on working with active duty and retired service members and their families, survivors of abuse, teens in the foster care system, missionaries, and NGO workers. Tammy and her late husband, Kevin, worked with victims of sexual exploitation in India and Thailand and were part of teams doing relief and development work in Iraq and Indonesia. Tammy has also travelled to over 30 countries and done community work in Jamaica, Australia, Yemen, and China, and has worked closely with refugees in Israel, Greece, and the United States. She and her daughter, Davin, live in Colorado Springs, Colorado.