Cookies must be enabled to use this web application.

To allow this site to use cookies, use the steps that apply to your browser below. If your browser is not listed below, or if you have any questions regarding this site, please contact us.

Microsoft Internet Explorer
  • 1. Select "Internet Options" from the Tools menu.
  • 2. Click on the "Privacy" tab.
  • 3. Click the "Default" button.
  • 4. Click "OK" to save changes.
Chrome Chrome
  • 1. Click the "Spanner" icon in the top right of the browser.
  • 2. Click Options and change to the "Under the Hood" tab.
  • 3. Scroll down until you see "Cookie settings:".
  • 4. Set this to "Allow all cookies".
Firefox Firefox
  • 1. Go to the "Tools" menu and select "Options".
  • 2. Click the "Privacy" icon on the top of the window.
  • 3. Click on the "Cookies" tab.
  • 4. Check the box corresponding to "Allow sites to set Cookies.
  • 5. Click "OK" to save changes.
Opera Opera
  • 1. Click on the "Tools" menu and then click Preferences.
  • 2. Change to the Advanced tab, and to the cookie section.
  • 3. Select "Accept cookies only from the site I visit" or "Accept cookies".
  • 4. Ensure "Delete new cookies when exiting Opera" is not ticked.
  • 5. Click OK.
Netscape and Mozilla Suite Netscape and Mozilla Suite
  • 1. Select "Preferences" from the Edit menu.
  • 2. Click on the arrow next to "Privacy & Security".
  • 3. Under "Privacy & Security" select "Cookies".
  • 4. Select "Enable all cookies".
  • 5. Click "OK" to save changes.
Safari Safari
  • 1. Click on the "Cog" icon in Safari.
  • 2. Click Preferences.
  • 3. Change to the Security tab.
  • 4. Select "Only from sites I visit" or "Allow".
  • 5. Close the dialog using the cross.
Book Image Not Available Book Image Not Available
Book details
  • SubGenre:Personal Memoirs
  • Language:English
  • Pages:392
  • Format:Paperback
  • Paperback ISBN:9781543981407

No More Secrets

Sucked in and Spit Out

by Judson Hoyt View author's profile page

Book Image Not Available Book Image Not Available
A young Judson realizes his attraction to the same sex. His homosexual feelings later conflict after becoming a Born-Again Christian during the "Jesus People" movement of the 60's and 70's. After his parent's divorce, he finds solace in a young charismatic evangelical minister, Brant, and is hired by him as his assistant. The ministry grows rapidly as it's mirrored after the well-known evangelist, Kathryn Kuhlman. Dark secrets of inner-gay conflict continue to plague inside the ministry from an affair with a church elder, while Judson shares mutual attraction to the flamboyant minister. Further secrets develop as Brant's health declines and Judson's position is suddenly replaced by another young man. Another romance develops after meeting choir singer, Kristy, after he confesses his same-sex affair and she confides the incestual dark secrets of her past. A last attempt at preserving the ministry fails and Brant's health further declines. "No More Secrets: Sucked in and Spit Out" is for anyone who's ever been caught in the hype of religion rather than having a spiritual relationship. A must read for those who are experiencing physical, sexual, and emotional trauma or feels lost and confused in their sexual identity and spiritual journey.
The blaring wail of air raid sirens fills the night sky. Judson, a middle-aged sergeant in the Air Force, is deployed in the Middle East during the Iraq war. He reflects on life with his wife, grown children and the root of his traumatic evangelical experience which hindered his thinking for years and inspired his memoir "No More Secrets: Sucked in and Spit Out." Raised middle class in Orange County, California, Judson loves his siblings and idealizes his larger than life parents and relatives in the entertainment industry. His ideal family lifestyle suddenly crumbles when his parent's divorce over bad business decisions, alcohol and gambling addiction. Judson's journey begins in junior high with his attraction to the same sex. Overtime, Judson's homosexual feelings conflict with his convictions after becoming a Born-Again Christian during the "Jesus People" movement of the 60's and 70's. After his parent's divorce, Judson finds solace in a young charismatic evangelical minister, Brant. During a service among the congregation, Brant identifies a "homosexual healing." Overcome with emotion, Judson claims it as his. He is then hired by the flamboyant reverend, Brant, as his personal assistant and limousine driver. The ministry experiences a rapid growth as it transplants in the historical Fox Theater, expands on radio, television, and grander services patterned after the well-known evangelist, Kathryn Kuhlman. Homosexual tension develops between Judson and Brant, the very same minister he attends. Dark secrets of inner-gay conflict continue to plague the inner-ministry and Judson, as he develops an affair with Jeff, a church elder. After Judson's position as Brant's assistant is suddenly replaced and the affair between him and Jeff end, a wounded Judson changes positions to the choir and drama department, where he meets Kristy and Elaine. The rest of the elders continue dancing around the elephants in the room as the ministry and Brant's health decline with further secrets, broken trusts and misguidance. With the alliance of Kristy and Elaine, they form a plan to confront Brant at a last attempt to preserve the ministry and help him. A romance develops between Kristy and Judson after he confesses his same-sex affair and she confides the incestual dark secrets of her past. After Judson has a vision of the ministry and building crashing down, efforts fail after Brant is confronted in private with documentation. Judson, Kristy and Elaine are ostracized after public exposure of the ministry. Judson and Kristy marry, move to Oregon, start a family and new life. Brant dies and years later Judson meets with Elaine to tour the area where the Fox Theater once stood. The theater is replaced with a five-star hotel. In the impressive lobby, he remembers his vision. In the courtyard area, all that remains of the theater is a large naked statue, a graceful replica of the Greek statue of Venus. He stands on the pedestal next to the statue. Elaine takes a picture of him next to the statue which he finds symbolic to his triumph.
About the author
In life, Judson has been an explorer. He says explorer because for the longest time he wondered why he had a wide range of interest in various career paths. His mother said to him, "You are an explorer like you father and myself." She further elaborated in her theatrical way and said, "We are all just curious what is on the other side of the mountain even though we don't always reach the top." It stuck to him. He admired some of his family members achievements in the entertainment industry. They were part of his mentors of inspiration and voice of experience. He often escape into the fantasy world of the performing arts and daydream what it would be like to live in his relative shoes. They made their mark. He had to find his own path and voice. Judson grew up in Orange County, California. After high school, he moved to Long Beach, California to enter the ministry. Later, he moved to Ashland, Oregon with his wife and one daughter at the time. In Ashland, he attended Southern Oregon University and earned a BS in Business Administration/Accounting. After moving to Washington and two more daughters later, he further earned a Masters in Elementary Education at the University of Phoenix. His further roles in life are and have been: Author, Actor, Bodybuilder, Christian, Director, Entrepreneur, Father, Grandpa, Husband, Minister, Patriot, Teacher, 24 years US Army & Air Force Veteran.
Thanks for submitting a review!

Your review will need to be approved by the author before being posted.

See Inside
Front Cover

Loading book cover...

Book Image Not Available Book Image Not Available
Session Expiration WarningYour session is due to expire.

Your online session is due to expire shortly.
Would you like to extend your session and remain logged in?

Session Expired

Your session has expired.We're sorry, but your online session has expired.
Please log back into your account to continue.